Thursday, September 11, 2014
Destination Family ~ Under the Same Big Sky
The road to Montana feels longer than before...
My sweet Aunt Wilma will not be standing at her gate to greet me,
but many who loved her as I have will.
I'm struggling this morning to think clearly enough to get packed...
snow or no snow... a point of focus is needed in this thought filled head to fill that suitcase..
I attempted to pack a balance, because it could be 80's one day and snow the next?
Varying degrees, much like the past few days emotionally.
Today I'm looking for a balance of my own.
Don't let the negative of this day be added to my baggage, I remind myself.
Today seems to be my day of saddness in regard to the loss my family is
dealing with. A bit more emotional as I prepare for my destination.
What is Montana going to be like without my Aunt Wilma?
Arriving without her there to meet me, the thought of it is like hearing the news again.
Only real, more permanent, final.
I'm asking God this day to fill me up, hold me up, to help me find joy in this day,
to have joy as I gather with my family to celebrate a life so well lived.....
I can sense Him reminding me now, it's only permanent and final in this world.
The real destination is called eternity, in heaven with Him.
She'll be there, yes, sweet Aunt Wilma will be at the gates to greet me when He calls for me to come!
Separation is temporary, I love that I know this to be true.
Destination, to my larger family, under the Big Sky of Montana where it all began for us.
There will be some serious hugging and loving going on, it's what we do....
A time of celebration, in the midst of our loss and grief.
Despite it in fact, there will be a celebration!
No matter the emotion or it's weight, but God!
It's what echos from my heart today....